Saturday, June 3
As I sit here in the passenger seat of the car riding along with my mama on the way to Minnesota, I feel a little bit like I am on the road to the unknown. "But you know where you're going, so it's not unknown." Ehhhh, sort of. I am on my way to visit my brother in Minnesota. My brother who I haven't seen or talked to (aside from one three minute phone call) in two months. Cooper is in Northern Minnesota at a therapeutic boarding school due to a series of poor life choices. I don't say that to degrade him because I will be the first to say that my brother is a rockstar.
He DOES have a soft heart, he DOES have a loving heart, he DOES have an optimistic heart, he DOES have a heart that loves Jesus. At the core of this sweet 16 year old boy, is a heart of gold.
He has just struggled in the past couple years, just like each and every one of us have. Coop just needed a little extra guidance, so with the counsel of my parents and his willingness to go, he has been/will be in Minnesota until April of 2018. All of that being said, I get to see him today!!! I feel anxious and expectant, I feel simply EXCITED to hug him and hear about the first two months of his time away.
I feel so giddy! We are about 30 minutes away and I am really nervous but really really excited. Even though I don't know exactly what to expect, I am so certain that this is going to go well and I just cannot wait to BE THERE.
We are just leaving! Oh my GOODNESS MY HEART IS FULL AND I'M JITTERY WITH HAPPINESS. I don't know if being "jittery with happiness" is a thing, but I'm making it a thing right now. When we arrived, we got out of the car and after taking not even 15 steps, I hear, "Mom! Chloe!" Cooper had been sitting on the roof of one of the buildings on the look-out for us 🙂 Hugs and kisses were to follow and boy was I glad to squeeze my baby bro again. He took us down to the dock by the lake that is on campus. We sat and talked for what felt like only 10 minutes but was really about an hour and a half. He gave me a little tour of campus (mom had seen it before) and introduced me to a few of his buddies. It was cool to see his new home away from home and get a small feel for what it's like to live there. It was SO fun to hear him tell stories, to see him smile, to watch him listen so intently, to pray with him, to hear him laugh.
As I lay here in bed reflecting on the day, so many happy feelings rush to the surface. It was such a good day and I truly could not say one negative thing about it. You can just tell how much the Lord has softened his heart and how receptive Coop has been to the treatment he is receiving. Just by the tone of his voice and the way he was carrying himself, you could SEE the changes (positive changes) that have taken place over the last two months. It was sad saying goodbye – those four hours came and went SO quickly but oh my word I am so happy that I got to spend this afternoon with him. This big sister's heart is so so full.
Until next visit, Coop. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4